shhhhhhhhhhhhiiiiiittttttttttttttt

God damn it!
I’m a real fuckin’ bitch, gotta hand a paper this Tuesday, I really fuck up, jus 2 days & I dunno how I can do it. No more bloggin’ for the next 3-4 days, fuck me cos I’m a real idiot. This fuckin’ extra hour cant do anythin’. If only I could get rid of this university.

April?!

I checked my calendar 3 times & now I’m sure after October comes November not April. So no April’s fool!
I dunno how people can think Americans ain’t idiots with such a cool president.
Hey guys I swear I know how to use the phone believe me!

FORBIDDEN

Adam & Eve ate from the forbidden tree & got fired from heaven.
If I ate from that tree then where would I go?
I’m tired of the words forbidden & bad; let’s go for natural & normal!

Batty

The baby bat
Screamed out in fright
"Turn on the dark,
I'm afraid of the light"


i have this terrible habit of checkin' my favorite blogs the minute i wakeup (or better say before bed) and when i find out there was no update for that day i feel sad& disappointed. I jus looked at this week postings i was doin it every 2 days. i know nobody miss me & wont feel the same as I do, but sorry for that if anyone thought their missin' anythin'
i was this asshole all week & i really mean it this time; if ya hadnt met me this week, go thank God for bein' that lucky. i cant think of a livin' thing near here that i hadnt cursed or shouted!
Everything's in a real mess & I jus cant find the way outta it, im not in the mood of smilin' so i guess i need no custom for Halloween , a Sweater & jeans can do good(Thanks to my twin soul for the idea! hope I can have him more next week!)
Guess i really talked bad language to Pete that he'd be angry at me for at least a week (if not ever) so this weekend's gonna be as lovely as usual & im gonna stay home playin Pizza Frenzy (it's pretty good game if ya as crazy as me).
November's comin & i fuckin' hate this month. in a week time it'd be 9 bloody years & i dunno why it seems more heartbreakin' by the passage of time.Seems as if I come to my senses as I grew older. So possibly a real dismal bloggin week waitin for ya.I know it may sounds really irrational & emotional, but i really miss'em.
i know im fuckin' idiot, darn it! i grew up so fast that i didnt notice what i lost.
I really wanna talk to somebody (or maybe i think like that) but I'm so fuckin pain in the ass that everyones mad at me at the moment!Sob!
Steve wanna go to Norwood to visit his cute grand daughter. so surely i'd be on my own for at least 3 days, if ya get tired durin' halloween, dont hesitate to knock on my door (I'm serious this time)
have a nice holiday

Sorry I was kiddin’

Hey Lord thanks for listenin’ to me, yea I asked for a hurricane, but ya know I’m fuckin crazy, I really didn’t mean it! Thanks for sendin’ nor’easter to Boston I was really glad knowin’ it!
Note:” why we couldn’t have Wilma, Dennis, Katrina…. , nor’easter, this name really sucks!”
Hey I don want any , thanks, I wanna celebrate my 25th birthday!
Though actually nothing serious happened, a few broken trees, a little flood…., the sounds were horrifyin’ I almost shitted my pants! Remindin’ me of the judgment day. So gotta say I’m really sorry my Asian pals, I love ya, I’d do anything for you, ya can stay in my place for a month , free of charge ( I pray uncle Sam never gives you visa! Cos I really don’t wanna meet ya)
Oops this post’s fuckin’ late. I cant think of anything funny to write.
Gotta thanks two guys who remind me I’m such a …. Bitch.
First , thanks the guy who showed the way how to find out who linked to my post, now I’m sure of the things I write is complete shit that no one link to them.
Second: the great idea of lookin for my needs in the web, it was a absolute foolishness (jackassness) of me to do it infronna pile of friends while the nice prof’s talking about analyzin’ methods of materials” Random sampling, systematic samplying….” Do you know who the fuck is Toby Keith? Thanks lord the prof was so emotionally & enthusiastically talking about the crashed pieces of a plane he’d analyzed (lovely broken shaft, oh my sweetheart…) and the feelin of responsibility we gotta have!
I cant jus imagine what he do he found out what we were doin!
Guess I’m gonna change my name to Kathie, it looks better! I dunno why any asshole in the world has my name. Sob
Ok I try to write better later, sorry! (You know that there’s no better day in my blog!)
Enough shit said, better go to bed, life’s a bit arggggggghhhh these days, gotta find my way out. sorry do you know where the john is?

Crazy Comments

If you haven’t read my previous post, better do it and then read this, thanks in advance.
Ok there are times ya feel there’s something inside of you, something powerful controlin’ your mind & feelings, something called conscience. Yea we all have it. In some people it’s awake, fully awake protecting them from devil. On the other hand there are some who are the devil themselves & in some it’s sleeping, waking up every now and then. Mine’s from the 3rd group. The previous post was the masterpiece of my woken conscience affected by noxious sermon of the dear priest!
Ok this is the logical answers to those treacherous brain leaks.

1 . sitting on the edge of window, watchin’ ocean! Impossible. ‘Cause Ocean’s a lot far from the window & ya too fuckin’ frightened of the height. Walkin’ by Charles’ quite a good idea.

2. Yes I do have a creative mind, it’s too fuckin’ creative that I’m tryin’ to imagine I’m jus sittin’ in the middle of roaring flames of hell. Yea keep on burnin’ I wanna yer warmth; it’s pretty cold here. Hey bud, can ya bring me a blanket!
3.Guess it’s a sign of being dead or partly dead cos everyone let out a cry when shakin’ hands with you, but I still dunno it’s ‘cause of cold hands or the skeleton they’re shakin’ hands with.
4. hey nobody askin’ ya for anything. Look jus do your paper it’s 2 am & yo writin’ shit (note: it was a while I put double t for writting, but I’m tryin’ to kick the habit!) so better not to waste this nice rainin’ night!
5. haven’t you really noticed. Ya really a kid, why do you wanna grow up. It’ much fun life like this! Remember yo still a kid so don try to act like adults, 25! Nope it’s 2.5 actually. So better open this bottle to cheer ( bottle of milk cos this boy’s still 2 year ol!)
6. yea, yo right. Yo playin’ a role. The role of a knuckle head, that has nothin’ to do but writin & doin shit!Hey Director, can I play as Prince Charming next time!
Heheheheh…(sob), what a miserable blogger I am, gotta comment on my own posts!
Note for 23 post! Hey I post it on a nice cloudy Monday afternoon! Thanks Blogger to be stupid enough to accept such dates!

CRAZY

1. Sometimes I feel I’m standin’ on an edge, edge of what? , I dunno maybe a cliff, window…..
But I really wanna sit on the edge of my window & take a look at city, tryin to see ocean, feelin’ like birds, flyin’ high in the sky, with the feelin’ of freedom, belongin’ to no where…..
2.Sometimes I feel I’m gettin’ lost in my world. Why? I dunno, there are so many questions in my crazy sick brain that I dunno the answer. I jus’ cant find the right answers, I try to answer other people’s questions to find the answers to mine, but it’s more like makin’ excuses to your elementary teacher for not doin’ your homework. I can still hear ‘em sayin:” another story, ya got a creative mind.”….
3. Sometimes I feel I’m becomin’ numb, really numb. Yea there are times I cant really feel my hands, have no sense in my fingers, it’s difficult to keep on doin’ what I was doin’. It’s like cold frozen water run in your veins. ….
4. Sometimes I feel I’m wastin’ my life. I’m countin’ minutes & hours, waitin’ for the next days to arrive; I’m not lookin to anythin’ today’s as black as yesterday & tomorrow’ll be as dark as today. Everythin’ orbitin’ in a meaningless way & hell I hate it. I’m thinking of daylight & the time I gotta dress & go, but it seems that it’s my life I’m wastin’. Lord don’t ask me what I’ve done on earth cos I jus wasted, wasted & wasted every single second of my life….
5. Sometimes I feel I’m actin’ like kids. I jus checked the calendar, jus 43 days 7 then another happy birthday (if anyone remember, includin’ me!) it means livin’ one fourth of a century, two and a half decades, twenty five years, nine thousands one hundred twenty nine days, two hundred nineteen thousands ninety six hours, thirteen million four hundred fifty seven thousands seven hundred sixty minutes & some fuckin seconds! Can you believe it? I cant, I jus’ don’t feel like a grown up man, I gotta act better, hey better look for a good job, don’t act childish, and be serious….!
6.Sometimes I feel I’m playin’ the role of a play, I’m jus a puppet, somebody else’s pullin’ my strings, seems there’s a hidden guy inside of me, decidin’ what to do & what not to do. I’m not willin’ I don wanna do that, stop pullin that strings, stop pushin’ me to these terrible sins……

some personal works! just the colorin!

this is the pyramid

Weekend Review

First sorry for the late review, does it mean I’m busy workin on my papers? Maybe; maybe not!
Ok jus a quick review:
Pete’s fuckin’ catholic, as far as I can remember there isn’t any obligation in choosin’ your religion, but seems this guy doesn’t know this undeniable fact. Ok so Sunday mornings are set for churches! So no stayin’ in bed waitin’ for brunch to arrive (well gotta confess it never arrived anyway!) what a hell should I do if I don wanna see the f**** priest, ha?
Guess no harking back’s needed, Halloween!, so what’s good for weekend?
Well to me goin’ to Common & carvin’ pumpkins so **** good. I didn’t do anything especial, chasin’ s’me kids, paintin’ s’me pumpkins & frightenin’ s’me pals!The result was great, there’s a nice pyramid there, I waved to it on my way this morning!
And then we headed to AMC Fenway to watch “two for money”. It was a nice movie cos I like Pacino so much, but cant say it was a real hit ‘cause it wasn’t. But it’s worth watchin’ once. Pacino’s again the bad guy like Devil’s advocate & Matthew McConaughey’s the young man to be deceived ( I only watched U-571 from this guy, he’s a good actor). A short summary of the movie would be sth like this:
“McConaughey, Brandon Lang, a college quarterback whose career’s felled by a knee injury but who possesses an uncanny ability to pick game winners. Pacino, Walter Abrams, as sports bookie , brings him to NY ‘n gives ‘im a new name ‘n plenty of perks to pick winners for his cable TV odds-pickin’ show.Lang devolves into sth less lovable than the free-spirited kid he appears in the beginnin’. Rene Russo, Abrams’ long-sufferin’ wife who stands by her man despite his penchant for temptin all the addictions that threaten his livelihood and health."
Well ya better watch it!
PS, there's sth weird about this post, use yer grey cells to find it!

errrrrrrrrrrr

writtin about feelings& events of a day,sometimes fun, but if wanna put'em for others to read everyday then it turns to a real crap!
so for today:
My utopia:
at least when there’s no rules , there’s no crime!
i went to nentist taday! oooooooooooooooww finished! i'd be out all weekend ,so no blogging!
GeeeeeeeZ!

Nothing's Free

Hell, how can I earn dough by writing shit? Seems I can’t do anythin’; got pile of bills to pay & there’re still comin’! Is there an end to it??!
In 10 days time we’re gonna have Halloween & I have no money to buy anything neither I feel like it. My tooth still sucks. It’s painful, I had many painkillers since morning & I slept like a junkie all day long, thanks ya gave me a knock on a door ‘n asked for a trip to the streets or today would be all in vein.
I dunno what’s next on the list, if there’s gonna be an earthquake, hurricane …. in here or some place near, jus lemme know.
I’m checkin theaters like loo,waitin for HP’s release, guess this one’s gonna be a big hit (unlike others), I really wanna see it so if ya get me the ticket I’d be thankful & can give ya a big hug (arggghhhhh)
I dunno why I cant put my fuckin ass on the chair & do my papers; I’m waitin for a miracle!
Yoooohoooooo, miracle I’m sittin right here.
I was jus wonderin if I hadn’t this nice bud that takes me out every now & then, then life would be such a terrifyin’ hell!
I have this terrible habit of usin’ bud on every tom, dick & harry. Ok I promise I wouldn’t do that again. But Pete’s jus a real kickass (means cokesoccer), I love him & more than that I love his fuckin VW, I’m really in love with Europeans autos! Fuck American!
The thing’s that happenin & I’m not really enjoyin it anymore is I’m asialized. I’m spending the same amount of time chattin with those guys as I spend with my pals. Arggggggghhhhh
I always felt sick about Negoes & I ended up sharin’ some so called shelter for over a year.
But hanging about with Asians is my all time nightmare , Geez, fuck this technology, seems there’s no space between places, & I cant stop my fuckin fingers pressin Enter for any YM name. I found many nice asian guys, I enjoy ‘em, I like the way they think, it’s interesting to know the so many differences & the reason why I’m still an idiot, thinkin’ oops here we have the world in our hands & then go to mall and buy any available instrument that can make sounds! Hehe look this one’s Chinese , oops here’s the Japanese or ya may like Korean.
They’re rulin’ our lives & we think, ok we have powerful missiles….
I think we are asialized without knowin it, why should a cowboy go with a Kung fu pro, why Matrix can be in the box?!
I dunno, ‘n I don wanna know, cos it’s none of my business, all I gotta do is to keep a balance between my income & bills!
But there’s one thing I cant deny, I hate Asians & wanna see ‘em in hell. I enjoy their thoughts & feelings, some of ‘em are really good in usin’ this language, but the more I have net contacts with ‘em the racist attitudes become stronger in my mind. Yoooohooooo guys ya jus names to me! Jus names, no face, no reality … nothing in my mind so better go to hell.
Sorry guys don’t feel offended, but I really mean it, so next time please don’t try to make me come to yer place (thanks for the friendly & nice feelings) or see yer fuckin face.
Thanks in advance!
But gotta remind ya; ya cant teach an ol’ dog new tricks!
Let’s pray to Lord that my nightmare never comes true, “hey lord please watch me carefully cos I don wanna end up marryin’ an Asian & worse of that livin’ there.”
A true son of yers
Let’s not sign! (FJC)

im jus thinkin of quittin! quittin what?! i dunno!

been playin this all night, this is the last level!

fluetic

A flea and a fly in a flue
Were imprisoned, so what could they do?
Said the flea:” let us fly”
Said the fly:” let us flee”
So they flew through a flaw in the flue

WTF?!

I was jus thinkin’ if we hadn’t that nice word, f…., then life would be such a misery!
Yea I went to GL nice place, great weather, cool scenery & I have this terrible pain in my toenails! Why!?! Well, it’s obvious cos I feel too much free in nature that I forget I’m a human (am i) and act like donkeys, jumpin from this stone to the other & sometimes missin some stones & then baaaaaaaaaaaaaaang crassssssssssssssshh !
Ok it was a nice day, but I had this terrible toothache for a week & it was so intense that really drove me crazy, I wanted to visit nentist next month cos my payin bills had crossed the line a long time ago, but damned I couldn’t tolerate the pain!
I’m thinking of pullin all my tooth and replace ‘em with dentures!
So I had to visit that nice guy! I have surgeons on top of my black list & they’re followed by dentists! ( hey I haven’t forgotten ya, you still have the first place!)
Oops I thought it would be jus a simple fillin’ but it turned out to be a painful root canal!
As far as I can remember I called ya & told ya I wanna stay home & take a zapzap (catnap) cos of the painkiller I took!
I dunno if ya deaf or I’m dumb that ya didn’t get what I said! Guess ya a real jerkass, who the hell would knock on sb’s door at midnight to pay a visit, jus imgine I was asleep! I can promise ya if I were asleep & you’d wake me up, I’d shoot ya before askin’ who yo?
What a nice night! I really dunno what do ya call such people but my greatest bud jus gave me a knock on door sometime after midnight & stayed for over an hour!
Ok guess enough, hope ya never find such sympathetic friends!
Tonight discovery:” I found out another resemblance between me & my most favorite animal in the world, donkey, we both has short, dry, rough, bristly hair!
I got my hair cut last Friday but I still look like an ass, I’m jus thinkin’ of the possibility of lookin’ like a donkey my whole life!
Tip number fourteen: visit your sick buddy sometime after midnight; if ya cant, jus call him!

I are unconvinced Boston people you

Hehe, I’m jus tryin to imagine yer face when ya read that sentence. Ya look so funny, jus lemme make some guesses; perplexed, puzzled, befuddled, confused, baffled….
I dunno how ya feel or look like maybe ya get the meanin by a few tries, then congratulations!
I felt outta my mind, kinda crazyconfused(one word!). well I got this nice meaningful sentence while chattin!
Heavens, I kept on sayin what& givin buzz(hell I love buzzin’ more than anythingelse) but there was no answer so I had to use some of my rusty grey cells! Sigh. Well here’s the very simplified meanin!” I’m not convinced that ya Bostonian (live in Boston!)
Heavens, what a disappointin’ sentence after so much energy wasted on getting the meanin they’re accusing ya of lyin’ ok ya right, actually I live in Hell, no need to prove cos everythin’s boilin’ here right!
Ok any question about where I live, if ya still not sure about my place I can ask Mr. Satan to send ya a signature cos he’s a close friend of mine!
I’m tired of usin the word, jerk, but that’s what I am or what I was in the last few days!
I’m one of those kinda human beings that when they saw a dead-end. They stop doin anything & begin naggin’ & cursin…. & think “shut down” is the only solution.
But better make a closer look, there are more options ya can use “standby”, yea pretty good idea, give yerself sometime then go back or ya may like to press “restart”, guess this one’s better, maybe ya jus took the wrong street jus a second ago, so ya have the chance for correction!
So next time ya get to a dead-end jus pause a little, there are other options.
Ok time to log off! What! That’s not on yer list, haha, that’s my personal option!
Hhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmm this post kinda philosophical. So better make a trip to Adams I wanna hike that precious highland in MA, GreyLock, so if ya didn’t see that smiley by my name, jus imagine me sittin’ at the beginin’ of the path havin’ coffee & dreamin’ of getting’ to the peak!
Tip number thirteen: do ya like hot ass? wanna have one! Easy , jus sit on the heater for 5 -10minutes(depends on the temperature) and with the help of conduction, convection & radiation ya can have one!
Have a nice & be careful with the heater!

Discovery

Hey I don wanna talk about shuttles!
Do you Remember once I tried to wash my soul( if you don’t , that’s none of my business)…..
Ok I got it back, I’m not kiddin. Seems somebody found it & post it. Now I feel happy cos I can share it. I can tear it. I can repair it but I’m not gonna shit it again. I feel really happy, I even found a missin’ piece, something to complete it! Guess I found the other side of my soul. I dunno how long I can keep it but it’s not important, I have it now so I wanna enjoy.
It sounds like I’m makin peace with HIM, hey Lord can ya hear me, I love ya!

thinkin

i'm thinkin why the sky's blue, why the sun shines, why earth round, why we are orbitin & why ya laughin at me.
monday was a weird day!
i met some of my relatives that hadnt seen for a long time & i realized how much i missed them!
the funny things:
i took the longest way to get sooner! (Mr IQ)
i fell down 5 steps while tryin to catch the train & why ya laughin! ya could offer yer hand!
and the last thing i ran all the way to studio 25 to be on time! when i got there i panted for 5 mins givin my friend enough time to nag! im not gonna ran again
im thinkin of goin to greyLock today so dont look for me!
i need air air air airrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

proof

im crazy im maniac im ....
i jus walked 3.5 hours to buy some coffee
guess it's proved by this pic

Weekend Review

Fox Sox Cox
some related words
Dox Box Rox...
better not to go on
Results:
Thanks nice weekend but i wanna resign so
Get another boyfriend!

Funny

Ok, ok I got it, yea it’s been sometimes I jus act like jerks & nothing funny here, yea yo right why im naggin & complainin, life’s not all pain, let’s kiss away the horrors, yea why I don’t share my happiness with nice fellas like you (assholes!) ok don’t get offended, I meant nothin’. Seems everyone in the neighborhood knows, guess ya gonna hear it on ABC sooner or later ok jus lemme tell ya about it, ok life doesn’t always sucks , I sometimes do it!
Im not goin out late at nights anymore, im jus actin like a good boy, look im waggin my tail, so im yer faithful dog! ( I didn’t know I had a tail till now!)
Ok weekends are turning to happy times of my life, no better say funny!
Should I go on! Oops it’s really difficult, yea I think I’ll tell ya later, yea that’d be better.
Ok it’s enough to know that im happy with this idiotic big smile!
Im back to my daydreams, im thinking of havin a big farm runnin after sheep & cows, get a kick by horse sayin yo not a cowboy!
Let me think of sth funny, aha I finished HP arghhhhhhhh….
I’m reading a HTML book instead of workin on my papers, I’ve said that before! Ok.
I got a new word too look for, fruit! Yea I dunno what it means.
Aha one more thing, don’t think im a clean boy cos im not.
I got a dairy software on my pc, sth like ol’ date books, I think im quite forgettin how to write on papres.
Aha one funny memory, I got this iron extraction class with the guy who’s really fond of me, I mean it, I try never pass his room ‘cause he’s ready to shoot me, yo see I’m his sweetheart sorry , sweatheart I mean! It’s one of the worst classes, it’s 3.5-5.5 pm really borin & all talking about fuckin furnaces! We gotta sit silent, jus listenin to him with no right to take notes ‘cause we have it in our books!
And he was talking about blast furnace & sth about the changing of insulators & refractories that must be done every now & then. And the one of these genius asses asked:” we gotta turn the furnace off sir” heheheehehehhe
Wasn’t it funny? Ok sorry, but I sometimes wonder why some gals be that idiot the temperature’s sth over 1700K(im practicing SI) you would be morethan BBQ!
Ok, some people think that im one of these smart asses takin notes from my classes, no im not, I jus write down crap, tryin to improve my handwriting. Hehehe
It seems I’m really outta idea, nothing funny, so please laugh, I beg your pardon.
Im thinking of borrowin some money to buy a zither & go sat by MGC & beg for money like this:” please help me, I got lots of unpaid fees, I need food, I need M&M for Halloween, I need clothes, yo yo !” I gotta listen to Sean Paul more!
And a Halloween idea. Im gonna sit at home & if anyone knocked im gonna point a mortar at anyone who knocks & asked for the chocos! Genius I knew it, im gonna work for NASA!
Well maybe I'm a faggot America.
I'm not a part of a redneck agenda.
Now everybody do the propaganda.
And sing along to the age of paranoia

and this is jus for ya

im talented, this is some notes i took at some classes

some diary

i didnt lie, look its too tidy

If I Were A Girl.....

Well, if I were a girl, then I was a girl. Nothing special would happen, just maybe people called me Kate or Katie or Kathleen! But look I’m not a girl now, can you see the difference? So if I wash the dishes, I do the laundry, I do the shopping & sometimes clean the place it doesn’t mean that I’m enjoyin doin it or it’s my duty ‘cause it’s not. I like to see my place neat (& sometimes I like to mess it) so don’t shout at me for not washing the dishes for 2 days or not having anything in the fridge ‘cause I can shout back (& I love to rage at yo, I love hearin my angry voice!) if you think yo busy, I’m busy too, if I fuck around the streets it doesn’t mean that there’s no undone paper in my bag, right! Get it! Think it was clear enough so fuck off!

life sucks

My life’s kinda ridiculous, no really ridiculous, just take a look at my routines& you get what I mean:
5.30-6.15 shower + breakfast
6.20-5 (sometimes 7) on my way to Cambridge & back + the Camb. itself
5-7.30(8) sleep & dinner
8-5.30 chatting-sleep-out
and at weekends, I jus sleep& play & meet friends
Obvious things:
1. There’s this meal called lunch that I dunno anything about it!
2. Sleeping is sth that happens every now and then.
3. I don enjoy goin to Studio 25 anymore
4. I have no time for studying
5. I’m tired of these books, not mentally cos my brain really likes keeping busy with complicated problems, I wanna go somewhere that there’s no need for education
6. Chatting is on top of my daily schedule
My life’s jus too simple, nothing exciting, everything’s repeatin on a disgustin way.
Let’s talk about chattin’ I do it over 80 hours per week!
It’s a bad habit, and I know it, I’m getting tired of it!
It just goes like this: hey wanna chat?…. Then comes ASL please & this is the worst part of it cos it’s the silliest question you can ask anyone ‘cause it has 27 possible answers!
Don’t get it!? Ok for each part we have 3 possibilities true, false & no answer, so you have less than 4% to get the right answers, seems such a risky silly question!
Ok then you gotta some name & asl data according to an ID, then goes the daily greetings for next days.
And then comes the topic to discuss, sex’s surely the interesting topic (but it’s not the safest) ok I don’t mind it, it’s sth people can talk about it for hours but here comes the astonishing question:” why it always lead to my sex life?”
I just cant understand it, there’s nothing interesting in it but people keep on askin really personal things without sayin a word about their interests or their own experiences, they just give themselves the right to know every single wrong (or right) move of my life.
Here comes the answer; it’s just ‘cause I’m too frank, too open & too brainless! Ok I talk, you keep on asking your silly questions and I don’t mind answerin & in the end I’m the one who has to apologize for the bad words said, foolish!
Look I wanna keep my pretty fuckin mouth shut, I’m not interested in that details of your life & if I ever ask you it doesn’t mean that im interested or willin to hear such shit, it’s jus ‘cause I wanna let yourself out if you feel like it.
So next time you see me on don’t buzz me, don’t think im gonna talk about myself, jus open that box if you have sth to share, it’s not a cop station, yo not the detective & im not the criminal!
Hey , I don’t like this place to be used as a place for above 18 materials, I don want bad words in my comments & I try not to use ‘em much, I need a place to shout, to cry & to confess but surely it’s not here; I’m building a secret chamber jus for myself you’re not allowed & I like to see yo standin behind the doors wonderin what’s that wall for!

Nobody likes you...
Everyone left you...
They're all out without you...
Having fun...
So better you have fun too!

I let the doors open, I let you in, I let you share my dreams & nightmares, hey it doesn’t mean that I cant have my own territory, I still have secrets that I hadn’t told ya, wanna know? Really wanna know! Get outta my place, common leave now. I thought I could trust you!

Fuck you, why did you forget to hold my hands tight? they're free!

Im not quitter, I don’t wanna be a quitter, I hate bein a quitter so I wont be a quitter.
That’s right. Wanna tie my hands hard, and then fasten it to somewhere high, gotta keep it outta reach of my hands, hell, the pressure’s killin me. I wanna shout, I wanna cry, I don wanna be the loser, but it seems I jus cant tolerate anymore, guess I’d be a quitter. I need help, hey im callin you can you hear me.

Common take my hands, keep’em tight, hey don’t loosen ‘em. Thanks.

This is what I bought, guess I look better from behind, btw I didnt ask anyone to take my pic, they had mental problems.

I have many things to write about but I’m not in the mood of writin’, Halloween’s near, I put the link in my sidebar a long time ago, but it leads to nowhere, so this means I have nothing in my mind this year, I’m thinking of hangin’ myself down, that seems sorta good.
Hey don’t wait for such thing cos im not gonna do that, better do it yourself & then I’ll tell you if you look frightenin’ or ridiculous!
I’m sure I’m gonna freeze this winter cos of lack of fuel, “gimme fuel , gimme fire , gimme that which I desire” so I went out & bought something quite warm, it’s nice & it’s not T-shirt, I swear! I dunno why everyone thinks I cant wear anythin’ beside tees & jeans, yes you can buy me anythin’ you like!
I’m thinking of cuttin’ some trees & gather the woods for winter, I may try livin in caves, guess it’d be much warmer than my place, I love winters but if only they were warmer, sth like 50-60 degrees, quite better.(I’m movin’ to south hemisphere, come with me, if you like!)
Something really weird happened today, very accidentally I did all of my Transport phenomena’s problems on my own. Yea, it’s something really odd, I dunno if it’s good or bad, but it happens every ten years.
Here just some reasons why I like to copy the answers
I’m too tired to do my homework
It’s such a crazy idea, when you’re sure somebody else has the answers
Why should I waste my time listenin’ to profs when I can easily manage my time copyin the homework
It’s a traditional act, before the invention of printin’ & photocopiers people used this method to publish their books
I cant understand why I should spend time solvin’ disgustin’ problems when it’s been solved at least 10 times before I even try to read ‘em.
I have no time to study my notes & no money to buy books, so I randomly attend classes, listen to the profs for a while & if learned anything, well not too bad then, gotta memorize it for my exams! See I’m a busy guy!
And the last reason: I have the most terrible handwriting in the world, no matter how hard I try I never get the full mark cause I can hardly distinguish 4 from 9 & 3 from z, let alone the one who doesn’t know what a gifted boy I am, so why should I try getting full marks!
Now I’m sure I’m sick, really sick, I feel really ashamed, why did I do my homework?
I know I’m a bad boy!
I watched “ Madagascar” yesterday (the reason I didn’t post!), it’s really funny, better watch it! I’m Marty, the zebra!
And I’m completely outta my mind, I’m listenin’ to American idiot, yea guess that’s what I am!

unsociable or antisocial

i dunno what's wrong with me, sounds like im hittin my head against the wall & nothin happens. hell it doesn't even bleed.
i hate the way im livin, the way im breathin, the way jus everythin's happenin'.
I jus go out, sit in my favorite hangout, studio 25 & gaze at people, take my LT out & began typin, why i have so many things to do & it's never endin. i raise my head, a quick look around & back to what i was doin, i jus cant get the meanin of bein sociable. i get on well with people or at least i think it's like this, i can make friends easily, but the problem's i cant keep 'em. maybe it's because im jus too selfish, jus want 'em for myself. when i see 'em talkin to other people it means they're not mine anymore,then it's time to pack & get outta their lives, the next time i met, i act as if i only met 'em some where, i act as if i cant remember 'em. then comes this feelin of bein lonely. actually im not alone. it's a lie i believed in it for a while but im sure it's not true. then i thought im such a jerk & people dont like my company, but again i was fuckin wrong. i jus understood i was wrong, when a class mate i barely care about asked for my company for a while & when i left him to go to my class, he jus held my hand so tight as if we were close friends.
and then comes this mysterious word, bud. hell the guys i think are my buds rarely call me, the only they can remember of a so-called guy , Keith, is when they need my help. hell what do i look like, donkey!
sometimes i wonder maybe i do the same, do i care about 'em ? do i call 'em cause i wanna know how they're doin? i really dunno , maybe im jus like 'em but cant see the truth.
guess im kinda antisocial. i have this devil inside that if ever once in a million year i join some of my pals & feel a bit as im enjoyin their company & they have no problem with my presence. it appears outta nowhere, get hold of my brain & says:" boy time to leave, these guys are too good for you" & the next minute i'm outta wherever i was, headin home alone.
hell im tired. am i enjoyin you company, so time to leave.
PS : you're crazy cause you cant find any normal man goin to bar and do nothin, jus sit there & do the homework, for the sake of heaven take jus a sip.
PPS this post really sucks, so to jus see yer smile, gotta say i know im allergic to what, jus guess!
to prove im idiot im allergic to my new deodorant & i needed a week to find out!
tip number twelve: if you feel depressed, jus listen to Metallica's Mama said & then you can easily hang yourself!
i'm badly addicted to net! so gotta thanks those nice guys that make me feel so miserable!

umbrella +scientific joke

so im gonna put a new part in my blog, the words that i dunno the meanin & the first word is:
umbrella:an object with a folding circular frame of metal rods covered with material, that you use to protect yourself from the rain or from hot sun
Oops, it seems sth useful, gotta get one.
so i went to MSG & looked for one, when found one, jus remembered many years ago i used to have one, oh what a technology, it can protect you from rain! but when you get so much forgetful that the only thing you can remember is takin yourself outta place & put some other things where you were, havin umbrella's sth meaningless.
So i dont have any umbrella, the sky is cloudy & you wanna go out. suddenly it began rainin, you have at least 10 mins ti get home , so runnin is not a good idea, so you walk as if nothin's happenin'. Results: yo soakin' wet. and what next, yea cold. i love catchin cold, i really love the fever & headache & sniffin & sneezin & coughin. the best part's the doc! yoho i have cold, i have sth you dont have. everythin's spinnin round my head or maybe im spinnin round'em.
so gonna buy an umbrella & leave it open by the entrance!
ok cos i feel terrible, wanna tell u a joke, sure never heard it cos one of my profs said it last week.
A guy went to Math. Department & asked:" what's the answer to 2*2?" & they answered:" obviously 4"
then he asked the Physics Dep. and after spendin some hours solvin so many complicated integrals.... they said:"3.9999999999999999999999999999999999999999"
then he came to material. Dep & asked the same question, the answer was:" how many do you want?"
HEY it's finished. it was funny, wasn't it? well if u didnt get the point, that's your problem. we really laughed. you'd laugh more, if u were studyin in material. dep. like me! hahahahaha ^_^

Me & Saint Peter

Jus’ imagine I'm dead & jus standin by Saint peter. Guess our conversation’d be sth like this:
Me: heyyyyyyyy
S.p (frownin): hello my boy.
Me: how ya? Seems me dead?
S.P : yes, ok just answer some questions and you can go to heaven.
Me: k. ask
S.P : do you believe in God?
Me: ya mean creator of heaven & hell & ….., wellllllllll, yep.
SP. : what about Jesus Christ?
Me: fuck JC. What a hell he did for me? Survivor who did nothin for me!
Sp.: all right. Name three good things that you did on earth?
Me: errrrrrrrrrrr…. Emmmmmmmmmmmmm…. Lemme seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ,
After an hour, SP : all right my boy, better just name one good deed!
Me still thinking, thinking ?& thinking
After 100 years
SP: okay say something.
Me: im workin on my thinking & im thinkin it’s improvin.
SP: okay one last chance, don’t you want to say anything?
Now I can see SFAFH (some fuckin angels from hell) standin by his side.
Me: yes yes, well ( my life’s whizzing in fronna my eyes) I broke several windows, shot several birds, killed several cats, lied several times, drank several bottles, fuck several lassies…..
SP: ok take him
Then the SFAFH took my hands and threw me into fire.
ME: noooooooooooooooo, fuckya s.p.

some fuckin weekend

Guess one of the things I love is vacation, no, I lied. I hate ‘em . They mean time to clean everythin’ time to stop your daily routines, time for fuckin’ round the streets & markets…. Hell, I hate all of these things, so the most miserable times of my life’s weekend, im always lookin forward to Mondays, and I feel really sad when I hear it’s Friday.
But these weekends can turn to a real hell added with some good news.
I was out on my daily walk to pos.sq. park (guess the gardener gonna shoot me with machine gun next time he saw me (or sth like me)) bumpin into a paper boy I gave myself the chance to ogle some papers. Fuck it. All I got was this:” It’s over: Chicago sweep Sox in ALDS” Yea, that was all I needed to hear. A few bad words, a deep breath & head to the park. That’s all I could do. I had this feelin of bein given a big punch on my stomach.
Runnin after some kids, pushin some empty swings & kickin some cats & benches then time to go back home. At least it was a nice cloudy day & before gettin’ home I was quite wet.
Guess it can be better if you had a quarrel with your hommie. Havin quarrel & fights & lots of kick ass is sth you cant avoid, when you’re livin with me. This means im quite a aggressive kid!
Jus put yourself in Steve’s shoes. You came home after a busy week , thinking you can have rest for 2 days & when you open the door, there’s all darkness & your place’s as cold as fridge. You go for the lights, turn it on take a quick look at the place & turn it off, wishin you never turned it on. You feel like you were given an electric shock, shut your brain down then restart it, turn the lights on again & shout: “ Keith, where a hell u hidin asshole?”
Me:” dammya, here”
Steve :” idiot whydya wrappin’ yerself in blanket & leave the window open?”
…..
ok,this part we were jus cursin & punchin….
Hey, remember it’s still Friday. After cleanin all the place ( were I messed it all week) I put my ass on a chair to rest. Then comes riiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnng, riiiiiiiiiiiiiing.
Bitch, who’s callin at sth round 10.
Hello…….
Ok it was my uncle, sayin his uncle kicked the bucket ( that means my mom’s uncle), fuck it what a hell should I do. Without sayin any sympathy & condolence, I hung up.
There’s sth funny about me, I can cry for a cat bein ran over by a bike but when it comes to death news (human being) I jus have no feelin. It jus goes like ok everyday we have a baby born so sb must die instead.
That’s it, that’s me & that’s why some o’ my friend calls me cold-hearted, but you know it’s not true.
hey this is my horoscope for friday, really true!
You're more competitive than some people seem to realize. So it will be surprising to them when you do everything in your power to get your prize. Friends brag about you. Don't stop them! Just say, "Thank you."
so dont brag about me! ^~^

this is how i feel

this is the last level, weekend! it really sucks, lets pray for monday

Magic Ball

im not in the mood of writin im jus playin magic ball for over 6 hours, my brains sorta crashin! Oops jus finished all 100 levels, incredible!
hell why everything sucks!? i jus ..........
Dont you leave me, Father Time
Take me with you
Tell me, does your sun still shine?
Come squeeze the world
and drip it down my throat again

walk on

jus walk on today, dont stay here there's nothin in my mind 'cause the nentist pull 'em out while fixin my teeth.
i got sth new to do beside my daily routine of Boston.cambridge, boston, chat, sleep!

guess what! i have allergy to sth new that i dunno, but gotta find, i asked half a dozen of my belongings, i asked my bed, my desk ,my pens ,even the loo but no one helped!
i cant think of anythin else!
wait, let me ask this little baby roach with napkins......
Oops too small to talk, ok gotta go! may be i'm allergic to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Been so many words
so much to say
Words are not enough to keep the guns at bay
Some live in fear some do not
Some gamble everything on who gets the final shot

Hey gal, don’t put it there

Some time in the afternoon, Boston subway,
As usual I was headin home from the borin classes full of formulas & definitions.
Once one of my prof’s said all this mathematical formulas are made by some unoccupied guys, in this century there are less unoccupied guys so we have less new formulas!
Ok back to subway, I was standin by the door (actually leanin) as usual countin stations & checkin if I took the right one, when a young girl jus came & stood infronna me,
Before goin on better know that standin by the door’s got so many advantages:
If ever got stuck you’d be the first to get out.(what gotta let old guys first no, they’d lived enough!)
If a criminal ran to the train tryin to get in you can push him out.
If you know the criminal, you can push the cop out.
You can mug for guys who miss the train
And a lot more!
Ok back to the girl, I was listenin to my loud music, wonderin how long would it take to get home when suddenly this girl put most of her arm inside of her blouse movin her fingers round the titty. Hell it’s a public place, I was lookin at her with a frown, when suddenly she took her hand out & began talking. Oh heavens she’d put her cellphone in her bra! Well here comes the mysterious question, if girls wanna put their cellphones in their bra, then where should the guys put theirs?!

Ok guess it’s enough for today, im extremely tired. Haven’t had a good sleep & food for a while, guess im gonna die of malnutrition!
One more thing, it’s a while I’m wonderin about the fact , funny or ridiculous that’s the question & today I found out im really ridiculous, sob im gonna jump down ……
No, not from a high buildin’ ,jump down my chair gotta go to looooooooooooooooo.
PS I replaced a Html book with my HP, guess it’s a better pillow ‘cause it’s much thicker & it almost broke my back while takin it home!
Oops gotta go, tomorrow im gonna visit another nentist! Wish me luck
and to finish this post wanted to share a quote from pAUL kURTZ ( i dunno who he is!) that a nice friend of mine sent me:
"the meaning of life is not to be discovered only after death in some hidden, mysterious realm; on the contrary, it can be found by eating the succulent fruit of the Tree of Life and by living in the here and now as fully and creatively as we can"

promise

im not gonna chat till the sun rise i promise
im not gonna leave my light on i promise
im not gonna change my major i promise
im not gonna get a new connection i promise
im not gonna do my homework i promise
im not gonna attend my classes i promise
im not gonna eat chocolates i promise
im not gonna wash the dishes i promise
im not gonna do the laundary i promise
im not gonna drink booze i promise
im not gonna brush my teeth i promise
im not gonna cut my hair i promise
im not gonna do the shopping i promise
im not gonna kill the creeping roaches i promise
ya not gonna read this shitty blog anymore
PLEASE PROMISE
ps gotta go or i'll miss my class

I'm That Donkey

Hi guys out there, I’ve made my mind ;gonna blog for some time again. The thing that happened is that im a real bloghore & cant go on without it!
So many different funnythings happened that I wanted to share.
First I went to nentist nan (dentist Dan), arghhhh, it’s one of the worst places on earth & this fuckin ….. guy told me gotta fill3 teeth, jus ignorin the so many nice Franklin notes that I gotta pay, I cant imagine the pain & horror, so as he turned his head I ran outta there, guess I wont think of doin anything to my teeth for the next 4 weeks, I’ll fix it some time later!
Anyway, I need some rope, I really need it, gotta hang somebody, but before that
Why didn’t you tie me up carefully? Jus can yo see im eatin the hay.
For those who don’t know what im talking about let me ask yo a question:
A donkey (me) was tied to a rope six feet long. A bale of hay was eighteen feet away and the donkey( again me) wanted to eat the hay. How could he do it?
And guess you know the answer, if don’t know the answer I wont tell yo, the answer is really easy, it’s not a riddle, jus a simple question, better work it out yourself! Ok don’t cry, I tell you. Easily, if the other end of the rope wasn’t tied to anything!
Bingo, yea , you didn’t tie it to anything & now im here sittin by the technology of past century & writtin crap!
Ok the funny thing, I was checkin my mail box when I bumped into a mail from a single finder I was once part of it, it was a long time ago & I almost forgot it, then comes the idea , yippee someone’s interested me!
So I ran to my account & bang open the waitin mail!........
I spent a few minutes in some kind of coma & I dunno why some guys think like that.
Guess he was drunk or sth when he pressed the “im interested” button, guess if you wanna look good, better take that glasses off, the glasses gimme the idea of those foolish Americans in movies that always chewin gums & barely know the difference between right hand & left. That really sucks, and I hate guys who wanna prove they’re as moron as shown. Hey my non-american friends I swear all of us ain’t like this! And btw guess im not interested in a guy who wanna fuck me with sunglasses, jus wonderin if ha can see anything probably!
Another funny thing was that I jus wanted a friend & this guy was lookin for a long term relationship. The only good thing about this thing’s that he lives in Bean town so im gonna put a gun in my bag & give him the chance to be shot whenever I meet him!
Let me see, aha I still love chocolates more than anything (even you!) and some nice friends of mine gave me 2 jar of jam, im gonna be busy eatin ‘em in the next week, the good news is im putting on weight, yippee, thanks to the chocolates , but here come the problem of so many zits!
That means lots of pain & bleedin!
For the guys who support Yankees, better go find someplace to hide, I love red sox, I love Fenway, and great thanks to Cleveland for the loss.” Boston locks up wild card for third straight season “
Im workin on my pic but not yet finished, I’ll send later, not gone to barber’s yet & I really look handsome with pile of straw like hair, so gotta put my cap all the time!
And below’s some pics you may like to see!
Have a nice time, tomorrow’s Monday & I haven’t read any of my books, and again I have the terrible “refractories”, another fuckin 2 hours nap!
Tip number 10: squeeze pustules on sb’s face!
PS guess I wrote enough to make sure that I’d be busy writtin shit for at least next month. Im thinking of wearin a sunglasses for Halloween, guess I’d be frightenin!

and this is the guy i talked about, i was jus wonderin do i look that ugly that only this guy's interested in me!? sob

look , i told yo i put some pounds! it jus fit!

it's not bush, jus my hair

the truth

Manny Ramirez rounds the bases after his three-run home run off New York Yankees pitcher Scott Proctor during the fourth inning.